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Hey guys, it's me here with another update journal. So, just to rehash stuff, I was recently diagnosed with ADD and my psychiatrist tried putting me on Adderall to help the anxiety and concentration issues I have as a result of that. It worked, but it also made me severely depressed, so I had to stop it. I mean I was the most suicidal I'd been pre-Ridgeview, it was that bad. Anyway, now that I am off the meds I do feel better, despite the fact my anxiety is back. I imagine I'll see him again soon and we'll try something else and see what happens, because I know my anxiety needs to be treated. It makes it really hard to function, just like my depression does. Speaking of meds, though...I'm still not sure if I'm on the right ones due to certain things. I mean, I'm pretty sure they're at least keeping me out of the hospital, but is that really enough? I want to be one of those people who looks forward to every day, who can do the things they set their mind to, who can function, basically. Every day still feels like it's about survival, and that's so exhausting and draining, honestly. It makes it near-impossible to do things for enjoyment, like watch things, play video games, draw, or write. I'm so sick of and frustrated with it. Can medicine fix these issues, or do I have to rise up and overcome them myself? I've tried, trust me, I've tried, but it just seems...impossible. I miss drawing my characters, writing about them, just...all that fun stuff. Also I still owe you guys Drawn, and beyond that, I have so many ideas for other Hidashi fics, and I'm even starting to think about writing for Voltron: Legendary Defender too because that's my new fandom/obsession. I just...I don't know. I want to get back into the swing of things, but at the same time, it feels like every day is about just...making it to the next day. And that takes so much energy, and it's so draining. But overall, I am doing better. I've been making progress with my mental health, I feel. I guess it's just a process. Anyway, on the last topic of the journal...yes, I got the new Zelda game everyone is hyping over, Breath of the Wild. I got it on WiiU, as I already have one, because who has 360 dollars for a Switch+LOZ? Not me. Plus I just want to play the game because I've been waiting for it for four years and don't really care to buy a new system when there's only one good game out for it. Better to wait until like Christmas when Splatoon 2 and all that has come out. Anyway, I'm either going to try to draw, play more BOTW, or sleep now, so later, DA.~CCS
  • Listening to: Youtube
  • Reading: Warriors Series
  • Watching: Youtube
  • Playing: Legend of Zelda: Breath of the Wild
  • Eating: Nothing
  • Drinking: Nothing
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Aliuh Featured By Owner Mar 12, 2017
I don't know that I've ever heard a good thing about Adderall. I hope you can find something that works better for you then that one. :hug:

As for the Zelda game, I really want to try it. ;A; But I'm not willing to buy a entire console for one game. Are you enjoying it so far?
PrinceCalil Featured By Owner Mar 13, 2017  Hobbyist General Artist
Yeah Adderall ain't the best. Thank you. Well. Buy a WiiU pretty cheap nowadays XD. Yes.
Aliuh Featured By Owner Mar 14, 2017
You're welcome.  I can't seem to find a price on line for them. XD 
PrinceCalil Featured By Owner Mar 15, 2017  Hobbyist General Artist
Aliuh Featured By Owner Mar 15, 2017
Oh, thank you!  That's expensive...
moulinrougegirl77 Featured By Owner Mar 12, 2017
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